So, I went to the gym today... Doing okay with the (lack of) eating, thing.
My partner is hinting today (and has previously said) that I am triggering her. Now she's whining that she's hungry, so I say, "Then eat!!" duh.. and she's like, "but I don't wanna ruin the day...." then to herself, I guess, "stop it! I'm being stupid, I'm in the mindset... cereal, have cereal". Me: nothing. What does she want me to say?
Must go to the gym again tomorrow! I've noticed that whenever I get close to my fourth goal, to this number that I'm at now, I sabotage myself, then I'm all disappointed when I've gained 3 lbs after a b/p! Like, wtf?? STOP SABOTAGING YOURSELF, IDIOT! So, I've allowed myself a little food, last time I added, I was at a deficit, I've since had some protein. I should still be under. I can't gain if I don't binge, right? Once I hit this next number, I think it will spur me on, because in all the one step forward, 2 steps back, 1 lb off, 3-7 lbs on(!), I haven't yet seen this low a number, since I dropped recovery. I can't wait to see it! And hopefully that day will come tomorrow!
Maybe if I'm super lucky, I'll skip it altogether and be even lower! *dare I dream*....
Wish me luck!
Hope you beautiful ladies are all doing well x
Keep your head up sweetie. The gym always makes me feel good.
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Thanks hun... me too actually! It must be all that serotonin releasing into my brain! Finally! Lol
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:) I am so pleased for you, stay strong and I hope you can see that 4th goal soon, :) xxx
ReplyDeleteI did it! And the 5th! If todays numbers stay the same in the morning, or better yet, go lower! :O I weighed again, but didn't post it to MFL yet *bites nails* *nervous not to now*
Deleteoh and thank you! I need something to call you, other than 'weareallmadhere'! Lol, it's too long :P Online people call me Ashen =)
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