It's all lies...

Tuesday 29 May 2012

No More...

Starving
Withering
Hunger...
Forbidden
Her return
Unforgiven
But
Relished
...While...
Bleeding
Seething
Writhing
Striving
Go Away
Come Back!
Love Me
Leave Me
Chanting
Chanting
Chanting
Why're you so fat!
*wilting*
Forgive Me
...For...
Being
Wanting
Hurting
Crying
Yearning
Not Learning
Bones
Grating
Sharp
Obscure 
...Like...
Fingernails
Chalkboard
Mind
Racing
STOP
Shhhh
Blade
Sweet Pain
Bitter Silence
No...
...More

4 comments:

  1. I hope you are ok.. you know you can always message me on mfp if you ever need to talk or anything, I hope you stay strong and find peace... much love xx

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  2. =( Reading this made me sad. I hope you're doing alright sweetie.
    XOXO

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  3. Sorry Katie :( I'm alright, I just hate how fat I am right now, seriously, I see so many girls who feel the exact same way as me, some weigh way less than me, some weigh around the same... but I don't know if I've seen anyone who weighs more. I totally let myself go and I can't get the weight off quick enough ='( it makes me feel like a fake and distrust recovery and those who want/wanted it for me. I just went too far, ended up being a disgusting, gross binge eater! I can't ever let that happen again. Sorry guys =(

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