Me too... I wonder if I should keep it to healthy cals?? Or get it over with, with slightly higher calorie stuffs. Blah, I dunno. So hard, when you're doing everything right, everything that worked before and you run into problems. I never used scales obsessively before though, both the times I got really sick, I just stopped eating, purged when I did... The obsession with scales made me eat more :s bc I'd freak over no loss for a day, or a minuscule gain, so I went by clothes size, aimed to fit into a lower size each month or so.. then I used the scale every so often.. not daily and multiple times daily, as I am now :s maybe I need to ditch the scale for a while.. hmmm
Thanks hun... Will have to start tomorrow now, too late today.. managed around 200 today, no gym *cries*.. no gym days are usually much lower cal days. It's so hard! I'm stuck in that anorexia mind set, but in an overweight body =/ It's *horrible* bc if I were to say to someone, 'I'm struggling to eat', they'd laugh at me and say, 'good thing, you're so fat you need to stop eating' =/ my head is fucked, lol
It's okay. I was at work so I missed your freak out entry but I did read it.
I don't blame you for freaking out or getting mad. I would be mad too. I mean you are trying so hard. Maybe your body is readjusting to your meds.
I would do a juice fast. You can keep it low in calories and it seems more filling. Usually if I caved in to food it would be some fruit or some soup. Just a thought to throw out there.
Thank you honey, your ongoing support means the world x
And thank you for your input/suggestion =) It'll be slightly easier to consume 500 in juice, rather than food.. And therefore, hopefully, harder for my body to cling onto any fat from food.
hello, beautiful. you always work with your body. if it feels like it needs more, it probably does. there's always that starving feeling that isn't pushing binge limit and there's the one that is. i am saying i feel 217. i'm somewhere in the 150's. i'm sure. i know my waist measurements enough to know i'm in the low 150's. and it disturbs me. thank you, baby. thanks for being here. i just really don't know how to lean on anymore. i probably sound shitlessly pathetic. but that's the truth. you're gonna do beautifully, beautiful. <3 you know your body more than we do. i think the easiest thing for me is to follow the all meals have to be 150 cals or under ideology in my head. and i can eat a bunch of times a day, still not go over a limit. if i set a limit, i realise i screw up very quickly. -Sam Lupin
Hey huni, I don't feel like I'm wanting to binge, really. I have the odd thought about bingeing on apples! :s and once I've fantasized about cramming cake in, when I went to the grocery store, I looked at all the different cakes, how many cals were in them and tortured myself, but I couldn't even bring myself to buy any of them, let alone eat them :s
You've done so damn well, being in the 150's is freaken awesome. AWESOME huni. I can't wait til I get there.. I don't really have a limit, I just end up at around 200-250 each day =/ I guess I have to lose eventually, even in starvation mode and a metabolism going at a snails pace, it has to drop, right? right...? =/
That sounds like a good idea - maybe eat small amounts throughout the day to boost your metabolism, hope it works.
ReplyDeletemuch love xx
Me too... I wonder if I should keep it to healthy cals?? Or get it over with, with slightly higher calorie stuffs. Blah, I dunno. So hard, when you're doing everything right, everything that worked before and you run into problems. I never used scales obsessively before though, both the times I got really sick, I just stopped eating, purged when I did... The obsession with scales made me eat more :s bc I'd freak over no loss for a day, or a minuscule gain, so I went by clothes size, aimed to fit into a lower size each month or so.. then I used the scale every so often.. not daily and multiple times daily, as I am now :s maybe I need to ditch the scale for a while.. hmmm
DeleteI agree. Just spread it throughout the day. It will be easier that way. Stay beautiful.
ReplyDeleteXOXO
Thanks hun... Will have to start tomorrow now, too late today.. managed around 200 today, no gym *cries*.. no gym days are usually much lower cal days. It's so hard! I'm stuck in that anorexia mind set, but in an overweight body =/ It's *horrible* bc if I were to say to someone, 'I'm struggling to eat', they'd laugh at me and say, 'good thing, you're so fat you need to stop eating' =/ my head is fucked, lol
DeleteIt's okay. I was at work so I missed your freak out entry but I did read it.
ReplyDeleteI don't blame you for freaking out or getting mad. I would be mad too. I mean you are trying so hard. Maybe your body is readjusting to your meds.
I would do a juice fast. You can keep it low in calories and it seems more filling. Usually if I caved in to food it would be some fruit or some soup. Just a thought to throw out there.
I hope everything goes better for you tomorrow.
Thank you honey, your ongoing support means the world x
DeleteAnd thank you for your input/suggestion =) It'll be slightly easier to consume 500 in juice, rather than food.. And therefore, hopefully, harder for my body to cling onto any fat from food.
hello, beautiful.
ReplyDeleteyou always work with your body. if it feels like it needs more, it probably does. there's always that starving feeling that isn't pushing binge limit and there's the one that is.
i am saying i feel 217.
i'm somewhere in the 150's. i'm sure. i know my waist measurements enough to know i'm in the low 150's. and it disturbs me.
thank you, baby.
thanks for being here.
i just really don't know how to lean on anymore. i probably sound shitlessly pathetic. but that's the truth.
you're gonna do beautifully, beautiful. <3
you know your body more than we do.
i think the easiest thing for me is to follow the all meals have to be 150 cals or under ideology in my head. and i can eat a bunch of times a day, still not go over a limit. if i set a limit, i realise i screw up very quickly.
-Sam Lupin
Hey huni,
DeleteI don't feel like I'm wanting to binge, really. I have the odd thought about bingeing on apples! :s and once I've fantasized about cramming cake in, when I went to the grocery store, I looked at all the different cakes, how many cals were in them and tortured myself, but I couldn't even bring myself to buy any of them, let alone eat them :s
You've done so damn well, being in the 150's is freaken awesome. AWESOME huni. I can't wait til I get there.. I don't really have a limit, I just end up at around 200-250 each day =/ I guess I have to lose eventually, even in starvation mode and a metabolism going at a snails pace, it has to drop, right? right...? =/
Sending you lots of love xx